We got married a over a year ago. Since February last year we are actively TTCing (trying to conceive).
For over 10 years I am suffering with polycystic ovarian syndrome aka PCOS. Pcos include female hormonal imbalance that can cause problems with your periods or get in the way of you getting pregnant. If you are diagnosed or interested about it here are some great and helpful links so you can inform yourself in far more details than it will be available here, cuz this aint no medical blog, it is a crazy lady life and makeup blog.
In short I have a lot of little, immature follicles that are refusing to grow up and act like adults and pop for me. So I don't ovulate... Ergo no babies. Crap. But that's not all folks! With this lovely side effect you get not one but an abundance of all kinds of nasty little annoying asshole symptoms including (but not limited to): hair growing everywhere, EVERYWHERE you don't wont it to and falling off your head; angry, mean and painful face demons aka acne; gaining weight with extreme ease and not being able to lose it no matter what I don't eat; irregular periods and one of my top favorites: PMS that lasts for weeks, WEEKS!! Can you immagine?! I am lucky that this person, I call my hubbz, has the patience and is understanding as much as he is. (Don't get me wrong, he is often full of IT, but he has some good sides :D )
So after almost a year of sexing it UP with no results and a large amount of medical probing, poking, touching, squeezing, pricking, blood draining and all the other kinds drainings, we (doctors, hubbz and I) came to conclusion that his baby juice (excuse my language, but I talk like this and this is my blog so, I think I'll just be me and if you get upset by this type of language we, probably, aren't the best mach) is some kind of magical super sperm that can make dirt preggerz but not this lady, with messed up ovaries. Other than that I have clean bill of health. High five for clean vajayjay! (if you know where this is from, YOU ARE AWESOME!)
We are both young-ish (late 20ies, early 30ies) and still quite broke-ish so we decided that we are going to start our pregnancy battle with fertility aid Level 1 Novice. It includes metformin, some supplements, some foods and drinks, charting, OPKs (ovulation prediction kits), joined some Croatian and international ttc forums and crossed my fingers. I will talk about all of them in the next post.
Ttc forums are great. There is an army of strong, determined ladies and gentleman that are struggling with the same problems and keeping each others strengths and hopes up with heart warming sections of success stories that make me cry every time. If you are new to this type of community (as I am) there are allot abbreviation you should be familiar with to get around baby, pregnancy, pcos or ttc forums. I will help you with them so we can all scan the interwebs obsessively, think and talk babies and how we are failing/succeeding to make them.
These are some abbreviations I found my self searching for while foruming around and that I will be using here in future. Lets get started:
AF - Aunt/y Flow, that bitch that always brings cramps and headaches with her. I thought I was lucky she only visited me three times a year, but then I realized I want to see her stupid face every month at the same time and now I hate her every month and I like she at least came. Dysfunctional much..?!
BBT - Basal body temperature, that's the temp you don't want to be bothered with first thing when you open your eyes. But it is important and forces you to get to know your body. (later on it..)
BC - Birth control, the one thing we hate..Do not control meeeeeeee....(also may come in BCPC form and it refers to pills)
BD - Baby dance/ing... ;) lovemaking, fornicating, humping, shaging... Having SEX!
BFN - Big Fat Negative. Every damn month... Thumbs down for BFN
BFP - Big Fat POSITIVE!!!! That is it! You're balling your eyes out and running to buy 10 more pregnancy tests and pee on all of the things just to make sure you are not craz/have faulty trest/can't see/stroking...Never got one.
CD - Cycle day. Number of days since the first day of your last period.. So in my case CD58, 59....CD120...Whatever.
CF/M - Cervical fluid/mucus. I don't feel comfy about this because I just can't figure it out, it all looks the same to me.
DD/F/H/P/S/W - Dear daughter/fiance/husband/partner/son/wife. I have problems with these, I am not loving as all the other great ppl on ttc forums. Also I always feel so jeally when someone types DD/DS and ttc#2,#3,#4....damn, my little evil black jealous heart...
DPO - Days past ovulation. After a positive OPK or a peek of your BBT.
O/O'd - Ovulation/ovulated...didn't..
PG - Pregnancy, preggo, preggerz, goal, wish, starting to tear up....
POAS - Peeing on a stick...Hate it and am so afraid to get yet another BFN
RE - Reproductive endocrinologist. Magician. The "make it happen" person.
US - Ultrasound.
TMI - hope not...
Thank you. Talk to you later. Baby dust for everyone!
Maria, xo
